To anyone who happens to stumble upon this blog, it will be painfully obvious that I have all but abandoned it.
Once upon a time, I was posting weekly updates on my sewing journey.
I was committed.
I had posts lined up a month in advance.
But as time went on, I started to realise that every time I would take the trouble to write a long update on here, with multiple pictures, it would be met with silence.
Maybe 10 views, maybe 5.
And all the while, I was posting quick, easy updates to Instagram, which had a far further reach.
It was easier and more fun
And it still is.
I didn't enjoy writing blog posts at all, so I decided not to use this blog anymore, and just post to Instagram:
It's too rigid of a formula and is not well suited to a blog.
But I've changed a lot over the 10 months since I last posted anything.
Though I've always been somewhat of an environmentalist, I've grown a much bigger interest in making whatever efforts I can to save the planet.
I've improved my sewing skills so massively that I now feel confident enough to begin selling them.
I've begun to (at least attempt to) overcome my feelings of embarrassment and fear over trying to make money. I must keep telling myself that I'm broke and I deserve a chance at using my skills to help me to live and pursue my dreams.
I've continued to be deeply in love and to struggle with the hardships long distance in a relationship.
I've made a small dent in my enormous problem with social anxiety.
I've been making attempts to get back into drawing, an old passion.
Here's my point: I'm a person and my life is not entirely about my sewing projects and nothing else.
I love sewing, but I want to allow myself to talk openly about anything I see fit, and not be presenting myself as constantly churning out dress after dress, for free, for myself, my friends, or family.
I'm afraid to do this. I'm afraid to open up about other aspects of my life.
I love people who are open, who talk about anything and don't feel like ashamed of what they say.
I love people who wear their heart on their sleeve and don't care what anyone thinks.
I am not one of those people. Well, I am, with my friends...
But I have a huge fear of talking to people that I'm not already really close with,
If you've met me you've probably been struck by how quiet and reserved I am
Maybe you even thought I was snubbing you,
But I'm not. I'm painfully shy and anxious around other people, and putting this stuff out there under the name "Milla Chaney" feels pretty terrifying.
But I also think it's important.
We need more open people in this world.
We need more people to be genuine, and acknowledge that life is not always perfect.
I am going to try to start blogging again, but with a much more fun and open structure that will make it feel like I'm writing about my week to a friend, rather than a chore.
I will be talking about sewing, because it is a huge part of my life.
I will also be talking about veganism, environmentalism, mental health, physical health, life plans, things that annoy me, things I love, and anything I feel like sharing.
I'm sure this will be incredibly boring for many to read, and I'm sure I will not see an increase in views, but it's what I want to do.
There is nothing more boring than reading the words of a bored person.
Except maybe writing them.
If you are at all interest in seeing regular updates on what I've been sewing, go ahead and check out my Instagram, as I post there pretty regularly, usually about sewing.
This has been longer than I intended.
I thank anyone who took the time to read this,